30 October, 2008

Addicted to Polls

It's true, I really cannot wait for this election to be over. I care very much about the outcome, but there's nothing new to be learned here. There is no information that needs to be related. The news networks are simply giving us hourly doses of nothing to keep their ratings high. And I keep watching. It feels hopeless, to tell you the truth. I can't stop thinking about it, so I watch. But when I watch, I just want to stop thinking about it. How does that work?

I haven't been a good blogger lately. Instead of coming here and relating my thoughts and observations, I have been browsing websites, scouring for something that stimulates my mind. I guess I am more "knowledgable" and "aware" of world events now than I was this summer. But what's it worth? I keep asking myself that question. What good is it to be informed?

Here are my primary haunts these days:

http://www.cnn.com/ for my basic "What's going on right now?"
http://www.foxnews.com/ for sick curiosity about what their depraved website is peddling
http://finance.yahoo.com/ to obsessively track the market and lament my observer status
http://www.fivethirtyeight.com/ so I can reassure myself that Obama's really gonna win
http://www.electoral-vote.com/ because I love looking at pictures of electoral maps
http://www.dailykos.com/ so I can become annoyed at the boring, self-congratulatory content
http://www.realclearpolitics.com/ to find some decent editorials about all that's happening

That's about the size of it. I live on those sites, and I guess I'd be better off living in here, and telling you my thoughts, since at least there's a creative product instead of just filling my mind with obsessive thoughts.

The weather and daylight change seems to have taken a toll on me. Ever since we got back from our "tour", I have not felt great. Sick, then sick again, then sick again, and constantly tired. Maybe it's depression, and maybe it happens every year around this time. I really don't remember. I haven't plotted my moods in any reliable way. It would be interesting to track all sorts of shit, if I were organized enough to do it.

I would track the following:
  • Morning mood, scale 1-10
  • Evening mood, scale 1-10
  • Dietary intake
  • Exercise
  • Body weight
  • Social activities
  • Sexual activities
  • Waking time
  • Sleeping time

There. That's a start. I think there could be some very interesting correlations to be drawn, with such a data collection. And that would provide me, perhaps, with useful clues for knowing what I need to do to be happy, and what I typically do that makes me unhappy. Of course, the presumption is that my happiness or unhappiness would not be impacted by the mere process of recording all this information.

Damn Schroedinger and his fucking cat. I am sure that cat probably pissed and puked everywhere, or else why would he have been going to the extreme of exposing it to radioactive isotopes?

Anyway, I am hoping that by writing this blog, I will officially be "back" into writing again.

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